I'm now approximately one week away from finishing MS2 and becoming a wise 3rd year. In preparation for moving onto the second half of my medical school career, I am frantically gathering yet more knowledge as I wrap up my last month of the Internal Medicine rotation. Here's the low-down:
Lesson 1:
Being on a consult service is frustrating in that you make recommendations and write notes and put in orders, but ultimately the primary team makes all the decisions, and sometimes even decisions in your field of expertise. For instance, the primary team stopped an antibiotic on one of our patients without consulting our team first. They stopped it for a good reason, but stopping it without letting us know beforehand was kind of a crazy thing to me. But I get the feeling this sort of thing is not uncommon when you're consulting on a patient.
Lesson 2:
One thing that makes me really, really happy is talking to people in their 60s or so who've already made it through all the hurdles I face now as a 20-something. Most of them have found their life partners, borne and raised children, and had their careers. In a time when I feel like very few things about my future are certain, it gives me hope to look at others who have come before me and made it through and are still smiling. This is probably why I like working with the Alumni Association at my school so much.
Lesson 3:
This is not a lesson by any means, but I took a picture with one of my patients this week, by her request. It made me feel really happy (she was a sweet, short elderly lady who reminded me of all kinds of grandmas), and it also made me realize that doctors take pictures with their patients all the time--and this was hopefully the first in a long line of photographs to come.
Lesson 4:
I may never get over the mental/emotional trauma of seeing patients in the ICU. I know it's a bit rich to say that when I'm, oh, less than 6 months into many, many years of working in and around hospitals. But seriously, how does anyone look at a patient, legs sprawled about awkwardly, mouth open with an intubation tube and orogastric tube hanging out, and catheters and lines coming out of necks, arms, and you-know-wheres, and not shudder, even if for a millisecond?
Lesson 5:
One of the toughest things about being a student is having patients with complex medical problems, whose prognosis you can't predict. Heck, who even knows if the attendings can predict some patients' prognoses? But what I'm getting at is, it sucks to walk into a room in the morning and examine an unresponsive patient while said patient's spouse sits in the corner in expectant silence, hoping you'll tell them something about the patient's progress. Unfortunately, being as inexperienced as I am, I have no useful information for families in a situation like that. It's rough to walk out without exchanging a word with others in the room, but doing that is better than trying to exchange pleasantries, or worse, telling them things about their loved one's medical problems that simply are incorrect.
Lesson 6:
There are 14 specific "systems" that Medicare and Medicaid look for on a Review of Systems; you have to hit 10 to get full credit. They are: Constitutional, Eyes, ENT, Cardio, Respiratory, GI, GU, Musculoskeletal, Neurological, Derm, Endocrine, Allergy and Immunology, Heme/Onc, and Psych. Isn't that wild?
Lesson 7:
I'm really grateful that I don't have inflammatory bowel disease. That stuff sucks.
Lesson 8:
Learning where all the free food is in any given hospital is a worthwhile endeavor. It feels good to walk around with ice cream and smile mysteriously when others ask you where you got it.